I wanted to try the chastity belt again, but still, I didn't want to unlock him for it. Just because I want to try being teased doesn't mean he has to be uncaged. 🤭 It's fun to see who's going to out-tease who. I keep him constantly horny and frustrated so I have a start on him, on the other hand I very rarely go more than a few days without orgasm, so I am rather teasable (if that wasn't a word, it is now) and to make it worse, I am not sure what arouses me more, knowing how it must be for him while he's touching me, or those touches and ocassional bites themselves. 🥵
After not seeing me naked for a while, it's been a treat to let him just have fun, touch me, and tease me. It's not hard to guess it would make him happy, but that spontaneous joy was just sweet. I love how he didn't know how to contain himself for a moment. After I've been teasing and denying him, it was too much for him to just have full access and be allowed to play with me. Grab my breast, kiss my neck, use a vibrator under and over my chastity belt. And to top the mindfuck off he actually got to hold my belt keys and lock me up 🤭 I am not sure what kind of keyholder would Luke be, but I can tell without a doubt that I would be a very desperate sub. He very quickly figured out that licking and biting soft skin on my neck reminds me of oral sex, which I love. Didn't know it would feel so damn good, so that's a plesant discovery. 🤭
I wanted to try it for a while, to know how it feels being unable to cum for a few days. Maybe more if I dare, but I don't think I am ready to lose control over it, not in the way Luke does. I think our roles are best the way they are, but gentle switching is fun. I love a bit of an adventure. It's hardly a secret that I love control, being on top of him, and having all the advantage. It doesn't matter if I am choosing to give him the best orgasm he's ever had or teasing him out of his mind. But I like to be the one who decides what and when will happen, whether I am feeling nice or malicious. So letting go, even for a little while, is a bigger step than I like to admit 😅 especially since I casually make him go ten times as long with a ruined orgasm at the end of it. But also, I find the experience educational. Not in the sense that I will change how I tease him, but when I will be teasing him, I will recall how difficult it is, so I can enjoy his frustration even more 🤭😈
The teasing was very pleasurable, which is also kinda the worst part. I can understand how he doesn't want it to stop, even though it's not helping. And yes, even the little taste of it does fuck with my mind. Of course I am nowehere near horny as Luke is, but I have to admit, it was difficult not to order him to unlock me and lick me to orgasm right after it, because I was so ready for it 🥵. It was exciting trying to let go a little bit, but I'm not ready to let him play with me while he's unlocked. Besides everything aside, the erotic banter two locked people have is quite hot. I wonder what he would come up with if I told him that everything is permitted, no consequences, but we are both staying locked. What would you do if you could do anything with me, but we were both locked? (Just trying to brainstorm how fucked could I be) 😄Not sure I would dare to try it, but it feels surprisingly safe, the cage would still tame him down, while the belt would prevent access to my pussy ... though there is another option from behind 😅
I wanted to post this video two days ago, but you have to forgive me, because the editing kinda sucked 😅 But on the other hand, it's a little longer so I hope you'll enjoy it as I certainly did enjoy making it.
So, remember last time as I told you I am not yet sure about the use of the chain mounts I've put on the table? I've figured I want to try something out. Eventually, the table will get used as a milking table as well, because that was the main idea behind it, but I am enjoying the anticipation, so I want to save it for later. Besides, he's nowhere ready to cum yet. I mean obviously, he would love to, but that's just too soon. It's funny how the bar is permanently raised up. I remember him whining about not cumming for a few days and now he's lucky when I ruin him every few weeks 🤭 And while it seems so natural, he isn't any less horny than he used to be. Three days in the cage, a little bit of teasing and he's ready to explode ... except I don't let him for a long time yet 😈
I am sure I'll find many other uses for the mounts, but this time I've decided it's time to give him some pumping again. He has a delicious love-hate relationship with the penis pump, so spicing it up by tying his hands and clamping his nipples seems like a fun idea. He always appreciates it when I let him have a proper erection after he's squished down in the cage for days. But once I use the pump his night erections are back in full swing, or they would be, if he wasn't caged and the firm steel grip wouldn't stop it right in the track. 😇
I loved how defenseless he was on the table. Especially since his cage didn't come off before I handcuffed his hands. It's so sexy when he's harmless and powerless like this. Just waiting obediently what will I give him, what will I do to him? The power is so hot. 😈He's horny and frustrated and I have the option to make it go away, and give him some release. I could just grab his dick and quickly make him cum. It wouldn't even bother me. But no, instead after I unlock him I pump his dick and edge him, to make it all ten times worse. The funny thing is, that it's even more effort than letting him cum, so he can't have a question in his mind that I do it on purpose and not because it's simpler. That I go out of my way to make him desperate and denied. Denied in more than one way. He could maybe see a silhouette of me over the mask, which is more than he got lately since his porn ban is still in place. Btw it drives him mad beyond measure, that people can see my nudes online while he's forbidden to look at them. I wonder why since there is nothing he could do with it anyway 🤭😈
When I released his hands his shoulders were hurting ... I am yet to decide if it's a bug or a feature as there are options to lock him in a different position. But I am slightly leaning toward the latter. Because I kinda liked it that it was causing some discomfort. Besides he looked hot stretched like this. The wooden table has this nice medieval dungeon vibe to it which I enjoy. On the other hand for long edging sessions, I might want to find something more comfortable. I like it when he's too horny so he can't take it anymore, but still crave more and the shoulder pain could be too distracting to keep this horny loop going 🤭😈
Anyway, that was fun. I loved having complete access to him and full control as his hands were handcuffed. And having him a little bit higher up was ergonomic at least for one of us. 😄 So far the table seems very sturdy. I wonder if it would survive some post-orgasm play 🤭 Well, one way to find out. But first I'll try everything else, just in case 😅
So, I have a new addition to my sexroom 😈 It's something I've been working on for a while and is finally ready for some use. I've heard over the years that my milking table was a little flimsy. Well, it held just fine and I am glad I've had it. But since I am no longer living in a student apartment and don't have to spare every inch of space I can do better. The original idea was to build just a sturdy table with a hole in the middle, but as I was looking at the drawing and picking up materials, I realized that there was no reason it couldn't be toppled on the side as a glory hole as well. All I needed was to drill the hole a little lower, so it's in a dick-height of one standing Luke 🤭 Then while I was strolling through the hardware store those chain plates mounts caught my attention, so I figured why not screw them there as well. Not yet sure, what for, but I am sure I'll figure it out soon enough 😄 Anyway, this is my new toy and I can't wait to use it. The only downside is, that I have no idea how I am going to explain to family guests, that I won't give them a house tour, because I am turning one room into a fucking dungeon 😂 But well, that's something to figure out later, now is time to be horny and it never failed me to make the best decisions 🤭
Usually, when I let Luke cum, I tend to let him simmer in his cage for a while. But there is no way, I won't let him stick his dick through the glory-hole, since I now have that 😈 Luckily denial comes in many forms, so at least he doesn't get to see my boobs. And to make it extra sting I've forbidden him to watch any non-cesored porn until further notice as well. Since I don't have one, he won't get to see this. So enjoy, because that's one thing you are getting over him 🤭 I've even decided to fondle my nipple with his dick, I am sure he would enjoy seeing that. Too bad. What would be the point of putting a barrier in between us, if he could see anything that's happening on the other side? If I am feeling nice (or evil, depending on the point of view), I might send him a screenshot later, when he's locked for a week or two. 😈
I have to admit, I was toying with the idea of letting him put the cage through the hole and just keeping him locked. I think it would mess him up a bit because once he was there, there was no doubt in his mind the cage was going to get off. It would've been delicious to just tickle his balls the whole time and then send him away. But I have such a weak will, that I couldn't resist it. 🤭 So I made the other best choice. Edged him till he started dripping, so his recent orgasm won't provide any lasting relief 😈 Oh, it's going to be a long road ahead of him. It's been just a few days since he came and he's already drooling. I think fun times are ahead for both of us ... though in slightly different ways 😈
So, the last session I made had a second part. I didn't mention on purpose, because Luke also hadn't any idea I would try to give him another chance. So I wanted to keep it as a surprise, as I did it for him.
There is always a balance between how much I want to push him further into denial and how much I want him to occasionally experience an orgasm. The truth is, I don't even know what I love more. 😄 I know a lot of people think, that I just love to mess with his head and make him a horny denied puppet to me. And while that's true, it's not just that. I crave moments of intense emotions. I love when he's trembling with frustration, unsure if he should cry or laugh about his misery. But in the end, I love giving the please as well. I just think the intensity is worth the wait. 😈
I really hoped he would manage to cum in the cage. I was looking forward to having my tits blasted with ropes of cum, after weeks of denial. But alas, he wasn't able to make it happen, even though I tried my best. He was barely standing on his feet, dripping precum, frustrated and horny beyond measure when I decided it was no use and he'll have to try another time. I was expecting him to put up a bit more fight, but he was too exhausted, so he just accepted his fate.🤭
What he didn't know was, that while he was able to let it go, I wasn't. I wanted him to cum. His orgasms are for me to decide, and it goes beyond their denial. 😈 So I've decided to give us a break, take some rest, and then surprised him by telling him, I want to give it another try. What I found rather sweet is, that I could see he was almost afraid to have another go. Not sure if it was more because he didn't want to fail me, or because his brain might seriously start malfunctioning after another long session without orgasm 🤭
What he wasn't aware of though, was that I've decided to unlock him. I am pretty sure he would fail to cum again in the cage. I've felt satisfied with the session before, he completely surrendered to me, accepted his fate, and was ready not to cum, probably until the end of times. 🤭 Well, I was toying with that idea as well, but after a little rest, I was pretty much set on making him cum.
So I went back on the chair, pulled a key, and pretty quickly made him cum with my wand. I think it would be quicker if I just jerked him with my hands, but at least he got to enjoy riding the edge for a while. I could see him tremble as he was approaching the orgasm, I was so tempted to pull the wand away and just ruin it for him, it would have been deliciously frustrating. But I was too curious about how much he was going to cum when I finish him completely. And got a pretty good look at that! Weeks of cum few right on my face. Fuckign amazing 😂 I was expecting him to cum on my tits, but I underestimated the pressure he had built up. So yeah, some of it ended up on my tits and my magic wand, but most went flying on the floor, my face, hair and shoulder. That's what I get for being nice. The worst is, I have nobody to blame because he wasn't aiming it. Well, I hope it's at least good for skin care 🤭
I am thinking about making a board / card game related to chastity. What type would you like to see, if any?
For a long time, I have been thinking about making chastity/femdom related card or board game. This is not yet an announcement of anything, but I do wonder if you'd be interested in one, which type? Or better yet, which first, because I find the lack of femdom oriented board (or card) games disturbing. And I don't mean just completely random dice rolls, I believe there is a space for game with actual objectives players can try to compete against. So, what are your thoughts? If I were to make one, which would you like to see happen the most? 📷 I have 3 ideas and I wonder what would interest the most people.
1, Solo game. As a lot of people are self-locking, and it could be a little tough on motivation. Having a board game designed with intention could possibly bring more purpose into it. Besides, it would be fun to see online all the horrible cards you've drawn or choices you had to make.
2, Couple game. I've noticed there is a sizable community of people who are in a relationship, but either struggle to talk to their partner about chastity or fail to capture their interest. Board game which would be fun for both could be a nice ice-breaker into this fantastic fetish and could make certain "talks" a bit easier while highlighting the benefits of keeping your partner caged. I think this type would need two difficulty settings, for newbies and experienced couples looking for inspiration.
3, Long distance. From experience I can tell, that chastity is amazing at keeping things steaming hot even when you don't see each other every day. While this would be game for couples, I think long distance would require so many changes, that It can't be the same package. The ideal use case would be partners not living together, work travel or even maybe with Doms online.
It's amazing to think how far we've come and I love rubbing it in his face. Way before he told me about chastity we used to be friends with benefits and for a while, we were fucking pretty regularly. Then things fizzled out until he told me about chastity. Since then he has had his dick inside me about three times or so and the best he can hope for is that I don't ruin his orgasm, when I decide it's time for him even to have any kind of releaf. 😈 And well, then there are days like this when I tell him, he may cum all over my tits cum, if he manages, but his dick isn't worth even searching for the key if I still have it somewhere. (Of course, I do, but he seems to strain particularly hard when I hint at losing it for its insignificance) 🤭😈
I get off on how desperate he is. I can almost feel the frustration and it's getting me so wet. I always feel so mean, when I decide to give him a chance to cum, but not unlock the cage. I can see he's straining so hard, his penis is trying so very much, but it's without any use. The steel grip the cage has won't make it grow any bigger. After all this time he should be getting used that the cage is his dick. All the glorious two inches of it 🤭Besides he doesn't need more since it's rarely going inside me anyway and when the rare times comes and I feel the need I could replace it with a dildo, or even better yet silicone replica of his dick, forever. 🤭
As far as I am concerned the chastity is like bracers for his penis. He may not have a 2-inch dick, but I've examined him and decided that he's supposed to. So the cage is not a punishment, but simply a corrective measure to make his dick match better what he should have been born with in the first place. Luckily I am here to fix the mistake. Or make up any kind of bullshit I see fit to justify keeping him locked up forever 😈
Trying the chastity myself and getting a taste of how frustrated I was, I've become aware that I can't do that for long. Now I have even more urge to make him do it, so I can live it through him. I love when he's so horny, that his excitement is blinding any kind of shame he could've had. While his dick is locked, he's more than naked in front of me. He's more intimate than if he was actually fucking me. Because he can't pretend anything. If he wants even a chance at cumming in the cage, he has to open up and let me see the depraved slut he is.
Poor Luke was dripping so hard. He was so so close to making it. But in the end, he wasn't able to cum with his steel dick. After riding the infinite edge the whole time, we were both pretty exhausted, so I decided to take a break and told him, that that was too bad - if he can't cum like this, he probably wasn't really that horny. I could see the horror in his eyes because clearly, he was beyond desperately frustrated. But what else could I do 🤭It's not my fault he didn't cum.
I couldn't wait for yesterday. However I have to admit, the anticipation was more exciting than I expected. I mean, I am always looking forward to our session. It's fun, it's sexy, creative ... and well, overall I would say it's one of the things that's been a constant highlight in between regular days, pleased to say for years now. But keeping a promise of not cumming made me even more aware of it. 😄 I know that compared to what I put Luke through, my denial was brief, just shy of a week, but that's probably twice as long as I went as far as I can remember 🤭 I think what was interesting for me was to realize, that it wasn't probably the length of it, but just the fact that I couldn't cum, that made me hornier than usual. It's like the "don't think about a pink elephant". Except in this case, I was trying not to think about his face and tongue running all over my pussy 😄Though to be fair I didn't put too much effort into not trying. I think I get it why he always seems to make it worse for himself. I think I was denied longer I would take edging over nothing as well.
Having the brief experience myself made thinking about how horny he must be, and knowing I won't even be unlocking him just better. Now I know he has it a hundred times worse, and I feel like a bitch (in the best possible way). Being in his shoes could've been a good case for empathy and feeling sorry, but I've enjoyed having the taste of it, so I can better imagine how much he craves the release and how much it must crush him when I tell him, it's not going to happen. 😈 How he must feel when he's serving me, only for his dick to drip helplessly in the cage.
Oh, the sweet agony. I love it. I might give it another go eventually. It was thrilling and I was hornier than I could remember ... the orgasm was definitely worth the wait. Though I don't think I could've done it without knowing any release date. Which made me tingle just writing about it and thinking, that that's exactly how he has it every time and I don't want to change a thing about it.
Lying on my back, thinking about how horny I was during the week and how his cage must be cramped, his body aching for release only for him to be ordered to make me cum, knowing well he won't have the chance today ... ugh, I fucking loved it. In my head I kept alternating between imagining how he must feel and how great my pussy feels finally getting the care it deserves 😈I felt almost evil and it made me cum so hard, you can see my head turning red even with the faceblur 🤭
This one is going to be a bit different 🤭You'll quickly find out why.
There are lot of sessions when I focus so hard on teasing Luke out of his mind, that I accidentally edge myself. Things like outercourse, anytime I grind my pussy on him, or even just when I play with him and give him a slow sensual handjob ... well, actually anything we do, I do because I find it erotic and amusing. 😅 Sometimes I order him to make me cum, sometimes I do it myself later. And on occasions, I hold on to that feeling of being horny and channel it further as a source of perverted inspiration. It's funny because while I make Luke go 3 weeks without any relief, I am pretty proud of myself when I can abstain 3 days, before giving in. I have no idea how he can manage it, especially, since I do my best to make it as difficult as possible, though I am often not giving too many other options 😈
Anyway, there was something I was curious to experience. When I decide to stay horny for a few days, it's just me, who made myself horny. I don't get that intentional "care" from somebody else like Luke is getting from me. So, since I am putting him through weeks of denial, I've begun to wonder how I would take just a taste of it. So, here's the thing, I bought myself a female chastity belt 😂 It's not something I'll be wearing for long, but at least for the occasion I wanted to feel the whole of it and how it feels being unable to touch myself, while he's trying his best to make me as horny as possible.
And if you are wondering, no, that doesn't mean he'll be unlocked. I mean, the idea of him exploring my body with his tongue while neither of us can't do jack about it was thrilling and it sounded like fun. And I won't spoil fun 🤭
I got the feeling even before we started, that it's going to be a lot harder than I expected it to be, and boy was I right 😅 I wonder if every guy who's denied would be great at this. The way he pinched my nipples, the exact amount of force, the licking, the tapping on the belt, reminding me how I can't touch myself, his fingers and tongue all over my body. First, I was kinda proud of him 🤭 Secondly ... I was ... well, I still am ... so fucking horny 🥵 I told many times, that the longer he's locked the better I feel he is at eating my pussy. It always feels like he's connecting better with me. I wonder if it's helping to make him better at teasing me as well. And most importantly, I wonder if I could channel it as well 😈Should I deny myself, to be a better keyholder? It gave me a lot to think about. Mainly a lot of horny things to think about 🤭
It was so hot to imagine that how I felt when he teased me is how he's feeling, just ten times more intense when the roles are as usual. I must admit, I've really enjoyed it. When I slid my finger under the belt afterward it felt like I was sticking it into a bottle of lube 😂 Well, to make it more fun and daring I pledged that I won't cum, at least until our next time. 🥵 So, that's going to be a few days. Don't laugh, you know it feels like a lot to me. Kinda hard to ignore that my magic wand is in the top drawer, just over there. Fuck I would love to use it 🥵 But it's kinda funny, because on the one hand, I would really crave the orgasm, but part of me wants to dig deeper, to experience a bit of the frustration firsthand. And I have the feeling that I will enjoy denying him even more because of this because I will understand better how difficult it is. Well, I would need to extrapolate a lot, but you get how I mean it. Haha, anyway, that's probably the first session I am ending hornier than him. 🤭😅What a fun weekend.
I wanted to publish this video a few days ago, but unfortunately, life got in the way. 😅 Of course, I could've published just the video, but without taking the time to tell you a bit more about it, I think it would be incomplete. This is exactly why I am keeping my journal. I can't count how many times I hoped to know a bit more about the porn I am watching myself. Because the "why" people do something is just as hot, if not hotter to me, as the "what" they are doing. And I think it's especially the case of any fetish content. One easy example I have are pictures of dicks locked in the chastity. The first thing I want to know is how did that happened, how long it's been, who's holding the keys, and so on. Often It's quite sexy on its own and I wish more guys would at least try it once, but it poses so many teasing questions that I want to know more. Even if it's simple ... "I wanted to feel what it feels to give up control, so I locked myself and put the key in a timebox." Is way sexier than just a picture with no context at all. 🥵
Anyway, before I run too far off with the point, as I often do 😅, here is what I've been up to:
Usually, I keep him mostly in the dark about my session plans and when he's going to cum. I drop some hints and teases though, because that's just hot and I love hearing/reading how the anticipation is making him horny. But I purposefully keep it vague for a few reasons. First I do what I promise because trust in bdsm has to go both ways. I know some guys enjoy being treated without a hint of fairness, but that's a whole other fetish of its own. I like to keep it unbalanced, but "fair". I just like the freedom of making any split-second decision. And the last reason is, that I love preparing surprises. It's thrilling that he never knows what the plan is. And I feel it gives me extra power over him because he can't prepare for it mentally. 😈
That being said, I've decided to shake things up a little. I've figured I can still have a lot of what I like, even if I tell him something for a change. The thing is, I can still tell him what's NOT going to happen. There is always the sliver of hope, that I'll make him cum, or at least give him a ruined. So I've found it sexy to tell him, that he's not going to cum for a while. That's something I rarely do. But I was in a mood for teasing. And while he can mentally prepare for it now, he also can't fully escape it, because he knows I am serious. Not knowing what lies ahead can be very teasing, but facing the inevitable is messing with him another way, and I like the change 🤭 Besides I could tell he enjoyed me being a little stern with him and directly telling him, on Valentine no less, not to expect orgasm anytime soon. 😈
With that, I felt it was only reasonable to give him a little handjob to make sure, he was appreciating the gift of knowledge properly 🤭 I slowly took him to the edge and then let him go soft. My plan was to give him just a single slow edge, but seeing the blob of precum after he went soft made me want to play with his dick a bit longer. Not that much longer mind you. That tear leaving his dick told me everything I needed to know. He's going to enjoy it, his dick can't lie to me. 😈
Handjob with a condom so he doesn't feel my bare touch, riding his face while keeping him caged, and finishing it with orgasm, but without even letting him get hard, those last few sessions really messed up with his sanity. Obviously there is the horniness, but it's not only just that, pretty early on in this journey I've figured that denial is most fun when it goes beyond just orgasm. His mind is programmed to need much more things than that. Of course not everybody might find this thrilling, but nothing is sexier for us. I think there are primal urges and also primal fears and somehow his mind is craving the conflict of those. 😈
I am not saying all of sexuality is about the penis, clearly, we have a lot of sex without it 🤭 but when I say primal urges I mean the need for strength, a big erect dick, to dominate, to prove your power, to fuck, cum and breed. Every one of those has its counter-fear ... to be powerless, limp dicked, pussy-free, and denied from sex and even cumming. Going without orgasm is difficult, it's like being hungry (or so I've been told🤭, maybe I should give it a try), but on its own, it's just one feeling. There is a whole other world of him surrendering himself to me in so many other ways. Making him caged, is basically me telling him, using your penis is useless to me. Making him cum soft is me telling him I don't need your erection. Not touching it with bare hands is just pure denial. And yet I am still here and his dick is my favorite toy. And his mind has to try to make some sense of it. 🤭
I said a few times, I share private videos, that I would love to watch even if somebody else were shooting them, or writing them for that matter, because I am often curious about the background of what's happening. So, being the one deciding what's going to happen and what I will make him go through, being so close to such intense emotions, and knowing I am the cause for all that mental anguish, there can't be a better aphrodisiac. I love the intensity. 🥵
But denial works only when he knows exactly what's he being denied. I love dangling that carrot in front of him, making him think he's about to get a bite, but as soon as he gets a taste I flip it upside down. I give him hands full of carrots, and tell him, "no, I changed my mind, you feed me". That's how I imagine it must feel when I squat over his face and cum with his tongue licking my clit.
Anyway, to my session today. I was about to say, I wanted to give him a little bit of sanity back, to make him feel a bit more manly again. But we both know this isn't a carrot he will get to bite. 🤭 So I may be just driving him further into submission. But at least he get to touch me, and his penis can finally feel like... well, like being a penis 😈 not just a soft blob of skin 🤭 He got to feel my pussy. I wanted him so close, that he could imagine I would let him slide in. I wanted him to think, that maybe I was so horny, that I would do it, even if just for a thrust or two. Well, I was actually dripping wet, you can tell by how mean I was. 🤭 But that also means I enjoy fucking his mind way more than anything his dick can do for me. So no, it was just a taste, so he knows exactly what there is to miss. To remind him of his fears and urges, to make him realize that he can't possibly do better than this, even if it means getting his dick locked away.
It's probably the first time Luke has really begged me to let him cum. I am not sure if it's becasue I teased him a bit extra "hard" lately, or if it's becasue his last orgasm was just cumming with the anal wand. 🤔 I think it might be the latter because I always try my best to keep him completely out of his mind. I like when he's horny and his mind is a bit pliable, it's makes him more devoted to serving me, he's extra attentive and he's extra sensitive to any sexual stimulation. But that's been his new normal for quite some time and I think he had to make peace with the idea that he won't ever not be horny. 😇 But to reward him, keep the positive feedback going and keep a sliver of his sanity, I let him cum, one way or another every few weeks or so. I don't keep check really, I prefer to just watch how "ripe" he is for cumming and then give him a taste, of something most guys have daily 😈
Of course, the longer we go, the more desperate he is and I can usually tell when he's nearing his limits. I know that any orgasm, or release I provide isn't going to last long. Usually, it's mere hours or days at best. But it gives him a break. I wonder if the anal orgasm he had has been different. He came like a firehose, that's for sure. But could it be because I didn't even touch his dick? The only dick I own is his, so I don't know firsthand how it works 🤭
Lately, I've been getting hints, that he's really and I mean really horny and that he can't take it anymore. Of course, my first reaction was "So, what's going to happen when you can't take it anymore, but I keep you locked" ... Well, the answer is that he's going to keep taking it. Which is exactly what I love about chastity. 😈 "Awww, you are going to lose your mind if I don't unlock you? Well, then go ahead. There is no escaping. You either learn how to deal with it, or you don't deal with it... but the external effect is the same. You don't cum." Well, at least I think. I didn't see him spontaneously cum in the cage. Some people claim it can happen, but most people I've talked to never managed to cum in the cage just because they were too horny. Anyway, I am sidetracking, because I too am horny, when I think about those things 🤭 So back to the point. After I told him, that that's too bad. I've started paying attention to see how bad it actually was. Interestingly riding his face without unlocking last time, probably didn't help him either. I could tell he was getting really desperate. Though I kinda liked it, because he's been all over me, helping doing my every whim. I am starting to suspect that prolonged chastity is the closest we could get to telepathy 🤭
Anyway, I am not (completely) evil. So after ignoring him for a while, just to confirm he's that desperate I've decided that it's time to give him some relief. I would have started considering it anyway since it's almost a month since he came last time. Too bad he had chosen to beg me to let him cum, because now I am confronted with a dilemma. I can't let him think begging is working on me, but at the same time, I think he deserves some relief. 🤔 So I've decided I will let him have it, but I'll keep him flaccid the whole time.
Boy needs to cum so bad? Ok, lets make you cum, just sit on the stack of towels, so you don't accidentally get erect. I didn't hear anything about needing to be hard or using the penis in any meaningful way. The lack of orgasm is frustrating you too much? So, let me fiddle with your pale and soft dick until it starts dripping cum, so I can lock you right back in. 😈
Haha, I hope it wasn't too unsatisfying 🤭 What more did you expect? You were begging me, that the pressure is unbearable. The cum is gone, the pressure is gone, this is all the sex you need and all the relief I've decided to provide. I would say I hope it's going to last you a few weeks. But like I said before, it doesn't matter, since I am the one holding the keys 😈 So "It IS going to last you a few weeks". ... how many weeks? Well, for the sake of keeping you motivated, let's say it depends on how your behavior. (at least little bit).
P.S. I am aware I switched the person from "him" to "you" mid-way through the journal. But I am used to talking mostly to him about the ways I am going to tease him, that it feels natural to me, to "talk" to him in my notes as well. I know. At least you can put yourself better in his shoes (or cage, your pick) 🤭
I often discuss different things that occur to me during or even after the session. This one is no different. The funny thing that I've realized is, that I can't keep things simple, even if I want to. I don't know if it's just me (I have a feeling it's not), but my brain craves some amount of complexity to keep me engaged. This session could be summed up in a few words. Luke gave me oral and I had a very satisfying orgasm. Right, there it is done. But is though? 😈 Of course not ...
It's impossible for my mind to stand still. It's always looking for some extra connection, something to tease, to fidget with, somebody to antagonize a bit 😅 ... I can't turn it off now. I remember that I wasn't always like this. But then again, I didn't enjoy sex all that much either. So maybe it was always there waiting to be discovered.
I love to try all sorts of things, but chastity gives an infinite amount of complexity and keeps my hungry mind occupied while keeping his mind occupied with hunger. 🤭😈 Especially when I am getting close to orgasm. Sometimes I feel I can pick a path to follow. Shall I focus on his frustration and how unfair I am, or will I more enjoy thinking about how his nipples are probably even more sensitive than his penis since I took the access away ... or how he's giving me the orgasm he can't have, or how much more time do I cum than him? Sometimes I follow one idea and savor all of the implications, but often my mind jumps around, getting a jolt of arousal with every new angle I can think of. I often hope to remember what it was, so I can then put him through it more deliberately when I am done. But when it's over I often remember just fragments. Maybe I should let him edge me while I sit down with a notepad 😂
Yes, in the end, the physical aspect is just getting my clit and pussy licked and it feels great, but that alone could never make me cum like this. I need that extra behind it. Like when we were out the other day, simply knowing he's caged, or even better watching him caged, is just giving me a malice enjoyment. 🥵 It's making even the simplest things more complex and it can't be turned off, at least not in my head. Luckily I don't want to anyway 🤭. Like when I feel that I want to surprise him with a simple kiss, it's suddenly not "just so simple". It's a throw of a rock that starts an avalanche of emotions. And I love it. 😇
On a somewhat related note. I wonder how many other people are like this and have their minds constantly wandering around. Do you see a girl and think she'd be so good at denying me? Because I sure as fuck am going around and wondering if I manage to spot a cage, or guess who would be into it, it keeps regular days more interesting 😄
I got to edit footage from the weekend. Luke and I were going to see a few friends from the school, not exactly a reunion as it was just a handful of people, never mind the fact that it's not that long since I've graduated anyway. Luke offered to pick me up, so I told him to come a few hours early, so we could have some fun before we headed out. It's kinda unimportant where we were heading, but It's a perfect example of a situation where I love being a keyholder. I mean it's fun every time, especially when I have my legs over his shoulders and his head deep between my thighs, but the invisibility of it is a thrill of its own. There are tons of things I can do in private to drive him crazy with lust, but when we are alone there is no secret involved. And that's an aspect that can bring a bit of fun. Having that secrecy is thrilling for both of us. 😈
Nobody knows that he can't get it up. Nobody probably realizes why they never see him standing in the bathroom. And it's hot knowing I am causing all of this. That I have an invisible leash to his dick and very much affects his daily behavior. And it's plain sexy to realize that he can't try anything on anybody. 🥵 Yes, he's committed to me, but it's fun to imagine somebody would hit on him. He's attractive, I am sure, he would have a pretty good chance of seducing somebody. Oh well, too bad, it would take just one hand down his pants to realize he isn't the owner of his own dick. 🤭
Anyway, I can't show what happened during the evening for obvious reasons. But I can show you what I had in mind before we left. It's one thing to be in chastity and another being in chastity while being freshly teased and the poor boy was literally dripping. 🤭 Good luck not stuttering your words when I am done 😈 Like I said, it's an invisible leash. Well, the hornier he is the tighter its grip.
My original idea was to just oil my hands and "jerk" his dick without unlocking. To give him a bit of taste of my touch, to reignite the frustration he's feeling in the cage while locked. But then I figured, the cage was going to feel extra tight if I let him out for a while. But at the same time, I didn't want to give up on the idea that I won't actually be touching his penis directly. Well, here goes the condom. Of course, it's hard to put on without some touches, but that doesn't matter that much. It was more about the deliberate action, to make him think about why I was doing it and to occupy his mind later. 😈
I just love turning things on its head. For most people, condoms are a symbol of fucking and having sex. So it's kinda amusing to use it for not fucking and denying direct touch. I mean that's what they are intended for, to make a barrier and make it feel like you are touching something, even though your dick is still just wrapped in the rubber. Well, this is just a step further to make it a little bit more intentional. In the end, he enjoyed the extra safe handjob teasing, I am pleased to say my hand isn't pregnant🤭, and the added humiliation made it hotter for both of us. 😈
Anyway, that was a fun weekend. And for the curious, the event was sweet. It's always fun to keep him horny and get a chuckle when he stutters to the hot waitress, while I am the only one who knows the real reason.
One thing that I find really amusing and great about making him realize the power imbalance is making him experience things that would be significant for him, yet are minor inconveniences for me always go my way. Like the flaccid edging. You've seen me do it quite a few times and I won't stop anytime soon. 🤭 Sometimes I think it's ok to give him a proper stretch. But sometimes I just prefer if he stays flaccid, so it's easier to lock him back. I love the look on his face, when he's unlocked after many days, horny, and ready to cum, only to have his soft noodle wiggled around. Completely erasing any visual remains of his manliness. Shaven clean, caged, flaccid, and most importantly completely harmless. 😈 Keeping him flaccid through the edging session is like making him scream in a soundproof box. The rage is all there, but only inside his head.🥵
I wonder how deep under the surface is the message getting. Will he internalize it? I mean the only girl he's sexually active is keeping him caged. And when she decides to unlock him she's happy to remind him how needless his erection is, that she completely blocks them and then laughs at his limp dick. 😈 I think even if it's just an erotic game it has to eventually leave a mark on his brain. I wonder what the effect would be if he were in a situation where he could have sex with somebody. Would that kick in? I hope to keep him around for as long as I can because I don't think many guys would be able to keep up with me. But the idea that I changed him forever is making me tingle all around the body. 🥵 There is something perversive about it. If he couldn't get it up because he was taught it's for amusement and not sex.
To be fair, I am not the only one who finds that idea thrilling. Every time I speak about the matter he's into it with me. He confessed many times how he finds deepening his submission arousing, how putting him into a perpetual friend zone is the hottest thing he can imagine. I wonder why being the accomplice of your own submission is so erotic. A few times I even straight up asked him, he find more erotic the idea of having sex with me, or me telling him that he can't have it and he always went tomato red before admitting that being only teased is probably hotter. I wonder if there is a feedback loop as well. 🤔 It would make sense to me. The more I humiliate him, the less he thinks he deserves it and craves at least the humiliation as a form of female attention. 🤭
Anyway, I wanted to talk about a mild inconvenience. The reason I told him this time I'll keep him flaccid for the session was, that it's easier to put the cage back on. Was it true? Well, it is easier ... so let's go with that. Yes, I could have just waited maybe a minute and then locked him semi-hard. But not letting him have a hardon solves that completely. That is what I mean by reminding him of the power imbalance. I bet that after more than a week in a cage, he would have appreciated if I at least jerked him hard, but I didn't feel like waiting a whole minute so I could relock him after it, so no erection it is. Because tell me, what do you think is more important 😈
Btw, imagine getting to squeeze my boobs without even being able to get hard. I bet that can create some inner conflicts 🤭
Do you ever masturbate and think, it would be nice if I had a few more hands? Well, half of you are probably locked in chastity cages and have quite different issues, but for some of us, and I mean me, it happens 🤭 You all know how sensitive Luke's nipples are. I always suspected that it was because of the lack of his penis access. Well, I don't have a penis either, so my nipples are pretty sensitive too. Ok joking aside 🤭 I do love when he grabs my boobs and plays with them and sometimes it doesn't even need so gentle (within reason). Like when he really grabs them. I love to feel the mixture of eagerness and tamed temperament. I know he's still a very sexual beast, he's just trapped in the tiniest of cages. And I love how it fucks with his brain and makes him a very obedient pet to me. Sometimes I almost feel like a brat, banging on the cage, knowing well I am in safety, just to agitate him, to observe how much he would love to fuck me, even if he doesn't himself go completely. 🥵
I can almost feel the anguish of how he's fighting himself. There are moments like this when he gets an all-you-can-touch buffet, but I don't even bring his chastity key. I know he's enjoying it, but that doesn't make it easy. It's a rollercoaster and a pretty hot one. Anyway, I love feeling his hands all over me, thinking how he must crave me. It makes me feel a little mean but very sexy. His hands gliding over my oiled tits, my pussy just inches away from his locked dick, and my magic wand very accidentally vibrating his cage 😈
I don't think many guys would put up with it, if it wasn't for the chastity. Driving him horny mad like this and then just keeping him that way while I cum on him like he's a piece of furniture 😈 It's an interesting mixture of thrill and feeling very safe for me. I know I can tease him like that, but I also know he's enjoying this frustration, my dominance, and the attention he's getting. I know he won't be trying to push me after I am done. No slide of hand to wiggle in for more ... no, I had an orgasm, he got to be part of it, enjoyed touching my body and that's the end of it. I am satisfied, he's horny and everything is as it should be for both of us 🤭
One thing I've found about chastity is that it needs a lot of things to contrast. I guess that's true for a lot of BDSM, but I think it's particularly true in this case. The main goal of denial isn't simply not giving him something. The goal is to make him miss that thing, to crave it and not have it. That's why the tease and denial is really just one thing. For me, it's less about denial and more about creating desire. The fun part is figuring out where the peak of maximum frustration is. 😈 If I tease him too much he'll get used to it and know what to expect. The same thing is true with too much denial. I tried it initially and quickly realized that was a mistake. Over time he will just find comfort in whatever is happening. And I feel my job as a keyholder is to constantly shake things up, so that doesn't happen 😈 Of course even I get predictable, but the only way around it would become completely unhinged and I don't think that's the way either. 😅 Though, I am sure it would make for interesting content. Femdom fever dream, trapped in chaotic-horny hell? Haha, well, maybe on Halloween, but that's not my point here. 🤭
What I am trying to say here is that I love alternating things that are sort of opposing each other, in one or more ways. Like giving him a lot of visual stimulation and then blindfolding him later, or making him eat my pussy, while his penis is caged, or in this case giving him a very intense oily teasing session with a lot of touching, after I've been ignoring his penis for a while. 🥵After he managed to cum from prostate stimulation, it is tempting to lock him up and just say "Forget you even have a dick." and try to make him cum caged. But regret is preferable to forget 😈 I want to create desire without giving it any outlet. I want to feel that pressure.
Anyway, it's a weekend and I wanted to spend some time playing games, before heading out to see friends. But his company is always so much more fun when we start like this. Love how he's silently squirming and trying not to be obtrusive with his horniness. Which only leaves him even more frustrated. 🤭 And it's all even better when his dick didn't get much action for a while before and then he gets the oil, edging, and complete overload of touches all over him, before locking him back to the cage again. And then he has to think about what's going to happen next. 😈 Will I let him out again? Or will I switch it again and not give him a single touch? It's pretty much a coin toss and the not knowing is driving him crazy. I have to admit, it's kinda hot when somebody can't get you off his mind like this.
I finally managed to make him cum with just a toy up his ass 😍😈
And now more details. I bought this steel wand a while ago and was waiting for a good opportunity to use it. I wanted to be there when it was first inserted, but I've decided to let him borrow it for a while, so he can explore a bit on his own and get more familiar with it. Of course locked, but in his own time, without me there. We've tried a few toys and this one felt the best. Smooth, easy to insert, pleasurable inside, and easily putting pressure on the right places.
To make the deal sweeter and to help him with motivation I told Luke that he's free to cum if he manages. While that didn't happen it served well its purpose. He was edged out of his mind, as he was trying to reach any relief like a good slut he is. While doing so, his body and mind started to cooperate on the effort.
Anyway, when I asked about the experience, he said he was about twenty times so close he thought he would get insane. 🤭 Which is fine by me. But he said he doesn't think he can cum while caged. I am not yet sure how I feel about it, but that's a topic for another time. Also, I don't think it's as definite as he makes it. All I am hearing is "I haven't been horny enough to cum caged" 🤭😈
But you know me, generous and soft-hearted, I wanted to give him the best chances, so I've decided to unlock him before playing with his ass. Of course, that's something I won't allow without me being present. I like him, but I don't think boys can be trusted with not touching their dicks. It's better when somebody else takes care of that 🤭 Once unlocked I placed him on the chair and found myself a comfortable sitting position on top of him. I had low expectations that it would work out. But it's something I've been long hoping for. There is something seriously erotic about it. It feels like a hack and I am all about finding hidden buttons and using things how they are not supposed to be used 😈 So the idea of making a guy cum by sticking something inside of him is just sexy wild.
It took us a while to coordinate where is what inside of him. I think it was a great idea to give him the toy home to figure it out for himself because he was able to describe things for me. I was expecting to move it a lot more, but just sliding it a few centimeters in and out while putting gentle and almost steady pressure was the best. I was almost considering giving up, but I could see he was still climbing up and up and up towards the peak of Mt. Horny, so I was dedicated to pushing it as far as I physically could, to find out if he cum sooner before losing his mind 🤭
And just when I was thinking his brain was turning into irreparable mush, I felt a bit of unfamiliar tension building up, and sure enough, he came like a firehose. 🥵 It was as sexy as I hoped it would be. I am not sure if I was more sweating from arousal or exhaustion, but it was so worth the effort. 🤭As for Luke, his legs are probably still shaking. He said it was one of the most intense things he experienced. He said that right before cumming the lines of orgasm and edging quite blurred, that he don't know if he can even call it "the edge". He had no idea where the point of no return was and when the orgasm started. Well ... me neither, this is one thing I won't experience myself. But I am thrilled I could've been there. And I hope I will be many times in the future 🥰
To say Luke enjoyed himself the last time would be an understatement, even if it lasted briefly. I did it mostly for him because I think every good boy deserves a reward every once in a while. You know, something they don't usually get, like a piece of bacon. You can't give them too much, because they are not meant for it, but a little treat can be ok 🤭
Well, today I wanted to make it more about me because I have my own desires to crave. Also, sitting on his face is always a nice reminder of his place and things he can only dream of. "Yes, that's the pussy I generously allowed you to fuck for a whole minute on Christmas. If we keep the pace maybe you'll get over a full hour of sex in this lifetime" 😈
Since I got the chair I am still trying to figure out positions that would work the best and things that were hard to do in bed. I was hoping it will be more comfortable and that I would feel more intimidating, squishing him down with my ass. And I'll be honest, it's about halfway there. The bed is still more comfortable, but I loved sitting on him like that. 🤭Having him eat my pussy, while resting on his body like it's a piece of furniture was super hot. I'll probably switch between the two until I figure out what I like better. Now that I think about it, finding out the best position for getting my pussy eaten out seems like good (and very necessary) research, one that should be done frequently 🤭
In the end, it wasn't the position that pushed me over the edge, but his desperate horniness. One of many reasons I love denial. Being the one causing him all the frustration is undescribably sexy. And then making him my own sex toy, eating my pussy on command is making me feel like I am almost stealing his orgasm. 😈 The more horny he is, the more eager he is to serve me. But it's more than that, it's in the details. When I keep him denied for long I feel he's overall more perceptive of my arousal and he's just better at providing me pleasure. Maybe his erotic senses are somehow heightened, I don't know. I feel it's not just enthusiasm that makes it better. He's more connected to me. I don't care what it is if it's erotic telepathy or what, but I like it. And I hope he does as well because it's not giving me too much motivation to change anything about it. Besides I find the absolute unfairness of cumming on his face while he didn't have even a ruined for weeks very literally orgasmic 😈
As I mentioned in my previous video, we didn't have time together before Christmas to properly celebrate it. And rather than rush it out I've decided to wait for a nice free day, where we can mix as much chilling and sexy tension as we wanted. And some tension there was 🤭 One thing I love about chastity, and sorry for repeating it, but this time it was especially true, is that it can turn almost anything sexual. I love how we can just sit, watch movies, and two-thirds of his brain think about fucking me. 😈 It's just something he can't turn off. I was about to say that I am doing my best to prevent him from meditating it away, but he doesn't even try. 😄 He's thriving in his horny-zone, he acts like it's unbearable, but every opportunity I give him, he's chasing the frustration like a candy. So I am just making sure I am providing a lot of those.
I had a funny "pick one option" idea. He's kept pretty much pussy-free because I don't like it that much. Most of you have been following for a while so I won't go into details about that. It doesn't mean all that much to me. It's not like I hate having penetrative sex, it's usually just not my thing. And if he wants to play with me, that's just something he will have to accept. The funny thing is, the closer we get, the lesser are his chances for getting some pussy 🤭 But anyway, every once in a while I like to remind him what it's like, so he can then reflect as he's holding his cage in the night, thinking about how the cage is almost the only thing his dick will ever be in. 😈 And to make the realization extra contrasting I want him to have a vivid memory of the alternatives 🤭
Anyway, to the options he got to choose from. I knew he was (not so secretly) hoping I will let him fuck again on Christmas, and yes, that was my plan. But I had my own twist about that as well. So I had a simple question. You can pick:
A, Fucking me from behind for five minutes with two condoms. If you manage to cum, you can. B, One minute raw, skin on skin, but no cumming whatsoever.
I was expecting him to take a bit of time to think it through, but Luke almost immediately went for the second option. As I hoped he would, that made me extra happy. 😈 But I would honor the offer either way. I just wanted him to have the best feeling possible, so that when he thinks back about the moment, he will recall every bit of me and how I've felt. Yes, the condom route could've brought him orgasm, but being in my pussy with no protection is more rare than that. Even if I was more into it, I don't take any pills and I don't plan to. So taking the risk and going unprotected is something that's not going to repeat often, even if for a little while 🥵
To make the most ouf of it, of course I let him play with me for bit. Besides I needed to get ready anyway, so what better way than getting my pussy and ass licked 😈 But when it came to the fucking he really got just a minute. I could almost feel his horniness through my body. I went with a slow sensual pace, so he could feel every thrust count. I don't think he regret his choice, even though I could feel the frustration in the air, as soon as I made him to pull out. Feeling his dick sliding out of me, still horny after the weeks of denial, it had to take immense will power not to just grab me by the hips again, or just jerk off on my back. I love the feel of how I tamed him. 🥵 But like I said in the beginning, I know he's loving the frustration. And even when I relocked him later and could see how his brain was melted like hot butter, he was quite happy. Though I think we will have to rewatch few Christmas movies we watched later, because I am not sure how much of the plot he got. 😈🤭 Haha, that would be a funny quiz, but perhaps another day.
So, this happened right before Christmas and I finally got to edit the footage. I was planning to have a gift for Luke, but as I mentioned before, things were a bit demanding, so I didn't have nearly enough time as I hoped. So rather than rush out Christmas session I've decided to postpone it and use the time we had for something different, but also interesting. 😊
Those who follow us for a while now know that we tried some anal couple of times, with various degrees of success. Inserting the dildo, while hot, went a little awkward when looking back at it. But the prostate massager was probably the best thing we tried, and it almost made him cum a few times. Few people commented that vibrations aren't that great for prostate orgasm and that simple pressure and massage are better. So I searched the net and found one toy I wanted to use on him. It's a steel wand, slightly curved. It's smooth, so I was hoping it would be easy to insert and the curve will help me put pressure where I need it. 🥵
When he came to my place, we started gently. I played with him a little, squeezed his nipples, and toyed with his cage. I didn't have any ambitions of making him cum that day. All I wanted for the first try was to insert the toy at all and make it hopefully a pleasurable experience. I needed to know how is he going to feel about it, how smooth the insertion going to be, and how easy it was going to be to pre-heat the toy. That's something I love doing with my glass toys when I occasionally use them. There is something nice about inserting a toy heated up to body temperature. 🤭
Anyway, when I felt he was horny enough I placed Luke on the bed, on his stomach, so I have easy access to his ass 🤭 Like I said, I didn't plan on making him cum, or edge him too hard, so there wasn't really reason to unlock his cage. You know, I was worried his penis would interfere with my results. Besides, what's the point of unlocking him, when all I want to do is try a new anal toy. 😈
I am pleased to say it feels like a great. Can't wait to have a bit more time with it. Maybe I'll just jerk him off a few times with the wand up his ass, just to reinforce the "something up my butt equals pleasure" connection 😈 But let's see about that. Maybe if he'll be horny enough he might cum regardless. And I don't mind waiting a little bit. The insertion is super smooth. The smaller end of the toy goes in like it's nothing. Except it really isn't. The surface is great, once lubed it has virtually no friction. Interestingly I found out, that it works best when I use the curve exactly in the opposite direction than I would have expected and make the bend towards his back. But I don't know, maybe it's supposed to work that way 😄
I have a good feeling about this. And so does he. I could immediately tell, that the smaller diameter and smooth surface made him feel much more relaxed than other toys we tried before. It slid right in, and because I didn't unlock his cage, I could see him helping me fuck the toy back, to get as much pleasure out of it as he could. Luke later told me, that he actually felt a few times pretty close. Though, with the Edge 2 - prostate massager he was on the edge half the time before I decided he had enough. So who knows, if he ever made it over the edge? But I am quite determined to find out 😈
Hi, Merry Christmas everyone 🥰 I just wanted to do a quick update, because I was planning to post a video, but I still couldn't finish editing and writing. The Christmas season is one I love the most in the whole year, but to no one's surprise, it's also one of the most demanding. I have some family visits ahead of me, so I will post in the next day or two when I get a bit more time and privacy. I know my replies and posts might be a bit irregular near the end of the year, but don't worry, I'll post everything as I get to it, so you won't miss anything.
Thank you for your continuous support, allowing me to share this fantastic journey with you. I hope you all have nice holidays 🥰
I've wanted to try something a bit different. I was curious how it would feel to let Luke go behind me and "fuck". No, not really, obviously 🤭 That's why I put that into quotation marks because some of you might get too excited before reading the next sentence 😄But I have a tantra chair. It quickly became my favorite piece of furniture, so of course I wonder how it would feel if he stood behind me and I felt his body slapping against me.
For this, I've decided it's going to work best if I give him a little bit more freedom than usual. Becasue honestly, I don't think it could work any other way anyway. I can't reach him properly and I don't see what's he doing. So I gave him a few instructions and made him wear his big boy pants to figure out the rest 🤭
Also, I have an idea in my head and I want him as horny as possible. Nothing unusual about that, right? 🤭 But I know he's expecting something special with the Christmas ahead of us. So while I didn't let him in me, I think he got pretty close. ... to be honest in more than one way. If you watch the whole video, you can see him dangle a big rope of precum. 🥵 So funny, that that's one of the rare occasions he's been actually allowed to touch his own penis. Even though I unlock him somewhat regularly for sessions, he doesn't get to feel his hard dick too often, because it's always me who plays with it. He's allowed to wash himself, but no inappropriate touching in the shower. He knows I might (and will) check it. It's not like I think he would disobey me, but I like taking away parts of his privacy, so he knows how much I own him 😈 Also it's a nice start to a session.
I hope you are going to enjoy my bouncing tits 🤭 I think they look pretty good from the side. And while Luke couldn't appreciate it the way you do, he got a pretty view of his own on my oiled ass. And a little more than just ass when I told him to pull down my panties 😈
However, when I was watching the video, I noticed he wasn't nearly as hard as I thought he would be. He started rock-hard, but he started to limp a bit as he went on 🤭I am not saying he wasn't aroused. You can tell by the precum and few pauses he had to take. He was pretty close. But I think he should be thankful, that I am into chastity and keeping him pussy-free, for the most part. Because if I wanted to fuck properly, I think he might have a "hard" time. And I admit, it's very possible that I've caused it, by making such opportunities rare. Or maybe it's the prolonged chastity itself. But his bending dick isn't helping his cause 🤭 Luckily, I don't need any kind of performance from him. As long as his dick will keep him horny, obedient and mind fogged with frustration, it's doing its job and I don't care about the size, shape, or hardness of it.
I used to joke about how he should start thinking about the cage like it's his new dick. I think it's not even a joke anymore. Sometimes I feel like regardless of how excited he is to be out of the cage, it's also making him a little nervous, and part of him wants to get locked into the safety of his chastity. Yeah, I don't think there is going back for either of us. 🤭
So, how do you like this bodysuit? 🤭 It's a little tighter, but I was hoping so would be his cage when he sees me in it. I have no idea how long it's going to last, but I love how I look in it. 😊 Also, the tantric chair turned out to be a fantastic purchase. I am thrilled about the positions we can do on it. I guess it only makes sense that it works better when it's designed about it. But I am continuously surprised at how great it feels. Usually, I just put Luke in a wooden chair and sat on a footstool nearby to get good access to him. And that's great as well, in the end, it's about the fun we have and not about furniture and other stuff, but being able to face him directly and observe his every expression during a session is hot, sexy, and fun. Anyway, it's not that big of a deal, but I like to share things that make me horny or happy, and this is one of them 🥰
Anyway, I have some pretty hot plans ahead, so fingers crossed that it will all work out during Christmas, as it can get pretty busy. Last time I ruined his orgasm right into his mouth. I think I could've let go of his dick a few strokes earlier, to ruin him even better. On the other hand, at least I got a pretty big load out of him and it made for a very erotic show from my point of view 😈 But I was curious how horny he is. I know that one orgasm, even more so when ruined isn't going to provide a lasting relief, but it still going to provide some. So I wanted to try it myself, to feel it in the hand how quickly he's going to reach the edge now.
Besides, after last time I was feeling devious, but a little less mean. I mean, I won't always push the limits. So, I went for something more sensual and gentle. And I figured nothing like being unlocked for a slow oily handjob, right? 🤭I wanted to tease him, but also make it feel nice. Sure, it will make things more difficult for him in the long run, but at the same time, it should feel rewarding. I want him to crave it, even though he knows it's going to cost him. What I am trying to say, is that I like it when he really lets go of caring about orgasm and future consequences like erotic frustration and just focuses on how good it feels right now. Chastity and horniness are inevitable in our dynamics, but I think it can lead to appreciating the moment, to being more mindful.
So that's the thing I am trying to balance. To tease him, to make him crave what he can't have, and to enjoy the moment, because that's the only thing he can safely enjoy. 😈 I think chastity works great for that, by removing any "goal" or endpoint, it makes no sense to dwell on it. Once the orgasm is in the play, it becomes too much of an objective, instead of this sensual, warm, up-and-down feeling. The tension of your body, the excitement of being close to your keyholder. To really feel the erotic energy flowing. It doesn't always work, nor is it always what I want in the session, but sometimes I like to use chastity as a tool to help us focus and experience sexuality from a different perspective. More exploration, fewer objectives. Also, it helps with his performance anxiety. Because when there is no objective other than "let's see how this feels", it's kinda impossible to fail it 🤭
As to my findings about his horniness. He was so aroused, I could clearly tell, by feeling him in the hand. But it took a while longer before he got to the edge, compared to before the orgasm, so I will make him simmer for a while, before moving forward with some of my ideas 🤭
Luke has waited long enough, so I prepared something special for him (and me). I wanted him to be horny enough so that he would be looking forward to the ending as well 🤭 Long story short, I wanted to give self-facial another go. I tried this before but I wasn't able to comfortably put his legs far enough. Well, it's one of the reasons I got the tantra chair, because I hoped I could aim his dick right on his face there. It's still not the most comfortable thing, so I edged him in a more relaxed position before we got to the finish. See, I want him to enjoy it ... at least a little bit 🤭
The video is a little shorter as it was getting difficult to keep him on the edge. I was afraid he might cum prematurely and for once it would be disappointing 😈 I could've just jerked him off right onto his face, but I didn't want him to cum too quickly, so I can build up a nice snack for him.
If he came too fast, the load might be smaller and that would't be fun. I wanted to make him feel like a proper pornstar, tongue out catching the hot cum right into his mouth 🤭 🥵
I wanted him to enjoy it a bit more with me, so I decided to ruin his orgasm as well. I can never decide what's more devious, giving him a full orgasm, but shooting it down his throat and making him swallow it with full post-nut clarity, or making him wait weeks for a chance to cum, but then ruining it at the last second, keeping him quite horny, so he doesn't hate the swallowing part that much? It's frustrating either way. The good thing about not knowing what's worse is, that I am equally unsure about what would I prefer. 🤭So I just pick whatever feels right in the moment and be surprised by the result. 🤭
When I felt he was ready I told him to curl a bit and get his head under his dick. It was so sexy to hold his dick and aim it at him. I loved that I was controlling where it was going to shoot. I could feel him getting hard in my hand as he was approaching orgasm. Knowing what was about to happen I felt shimmering in the stomach. And then as I felt the first spasm I stopped jerking him, I just kept aiming it. It was so hot to watch him get a cumshot right into his mouth. 🥵 It's not always, but sometimes I get these red maps on my skin when I am really aroused. You can definitely watch me blush all over my chest. It was one of the hottest things I've done, I loved every bit of it.
Well, after such a long denial, he's barely empty after one ruined orgasm. I could've emptied his balls into his mouth at least one more time. I was considering it, but I like keeping him horny. I love that he paid the price, and got ropes of cum into his open mouth, but didn't have a proper orgasm and is still beyond horny, even though he swallowed it all as I ordered him. I enjoy the idea that the amount of cum inside his body is the same 🤭 So hot turning him into a horny slut that does anything for me. 😈
I was curious if the pumping made any difference, so I prepared a nice teasing session, to see how hard he’ll get for me.
I enjoy jerking him without letting him see me naked. I feel like denying him the view is adding an extra layer of vulnerability. He’s already at my mercy, so adding on the disbalance feels like stacking everything in my favor. In other words, feels just right. 🤭
And I like how it teases his imagination as well. After all, his brain is the spot I am trying to reach. Penis and chastity, and all of that are just tools to get there. So anything that makes him think is great, because it keeps him more engaged. I feel like he gets quite a bit of satisfaction, just by watching me nude, so I enjoy taking that away. With the same idea, you can guess if I had panties or not, while sitting on his chest. 😈
I have no idea if it’s just a placebo or not, but I think the pump did a good job. He was so hard, his dick was almost bursting. In fact, I had to slap him a few times, because I think he might have been getting a little too excited, and I didn’t want him yet to cum. 🤭 I have a different idea for it, and I want him to be as horny as possible. 😈
Anyway, I just wanted to let him out for a while so he could enjoy his precious little erection, before I locked him back in. I find it somewhat funny, that it's me who’s keeping his erections in good shape; let him stretch regularly and even pump him from time to time to give it a little extra boost. 🤭 Because, as for me, not much would have changed if he never got hard again. I know well that I can make him edge and cum completely flaccid. Erections are mostly for penetration, and that doesn’t happen in his case. He’s lucky hard dicks are nice to look at and fun to play with. But most importantly, I would miss to lose the contrast. It think it’s much more mentally and physically impactful when I jerk him until he’s hard and veiny and then cramp him back into his two-inch cage.😈
One topic that periodically resurfaces and I am semi-frequently asked about is the chastity shrinking question. About half the people are frightened by the prospect and the other half is hoping to shrink their dick to oblivion 🤭 By my observation it's mostly a myth, but not completely. Long story short: if you are afraid of irreversibly shrinking your penis, you may relax, or mourn, depending on your fetishes, but it's probably not going to happen. But you may still "enjoy" some of the effects if you are staying caged for long enough and frequently enough 🤭
Now, what I am about to say is specific to our circumstances. So it might be different in your case. Luke is frequently unlocked for teasing and playing sessions and has no health conditions or an ill-fitted cage. Now with that out of the way, I'll repeat what I said a few times, but perhaps extend the context a little bit and explain my goals for this session 😈
Locking his penis up forever is a unique kind of fun, that I can't imagine living without anymore. But it's hard to have certainty about chastity and its long-term effects. After all, sadly, males are born without chastity cages, so it's difficult to assume anything. Luckily, countless people worldwide have been wearing the cages for decades now, so while all anecdotical, the evidence is piling up. And our own is aligned with the rest.
Penis is more of a sponge than a muscle. When I keep Luke locked for prolonged periods, sometimes, but not always, his erection might get a little weaker. Other times it might get rock hard. But there is an element of unpredictability. Last time, I was teasing him out of his mind. When I locked him back up, he was dripping precum through the bars of his cage. But I know from experience, that he can be harder than he was, at least in a few moments. even with the help of the chastity ring. And that's where I think the "myth" is coming from. When you get only 70% or 80% max erection, your penis is naturally smaller. And if you lock it back up without giving it some stretch, you may be able to "stack" this effect to infinity. So I think some people genuinely have their dick shrunk by chastity. It's temporary, very probably. But well, depends on the definition. It's not permanent, but it can be perpetual. And for some, that can be all the same.
Also, regardless if you love or dread the idea of shrinking, there is one benefit for everyone. A weaker erection in long-term chastity means better sleeping. Luke is complaining a lot less after a while. Because his penis learns to give up at night. At least that's how I like to explain it 😈. Well, mostly. I got quite a few complaints in the night with some raunchy descriptions of his dreams. 🤭
Well, since the effect seems to be caused by a temporary loss of elasticity of what's professionally called a dick-sponge tissue, I figured a while ago, that a penis pump is a great way to reverse any "shrinking". Or better yet improve erection, because I think it's the same thing. And while I administer some pump sessions partly for this reason, that doesn't mean I don't have fun doing it 🤭 There is something devious about making him harder than he ever was, but being unable to touch it. As soon as I release the valve, his dick is back to its regular size, just nicely perfused and very sensitive 😈
Yeah, there is a downside to it too. His nocturnal erection will be hell for a couple of days until his dick figure out how to un-learn it again. Aww, too bad. Such a vicious cycle 🤭
One thing that I love and is sometimes hard to capture on camera is any kind of outercourse. I know he would prefer the "inter"course but he knows very well, that that's not happening too often. I used to be a bit ashamed that I didn't like it that much, but my journey to femdom helped me to learn to like myself the way I am with all the different quirks. And not being too big on penetration is certainly one of them. So, rather than feeling apologetic about it, I've embraced it and used it as another tool. I know it's something he would love very much, so it gives me a special kind of power. He's drooling over something I don't really care for all that often. 🤭 It's funny because for me it's the ultimate answer a lot of people have about chastity. "If you lock his dick, what about you?". Some couples are giving cuckolding / hotwifing a shot and that's certainly one answer for that, but my preferred one is just using any other part of his body. 😈 Or at least use it any other way.
It's not like his dick doesn't have a purpose. I love that thing. However, I guess I am seeking different qualities than size and shape. I am more interested in his stamina and horniness and sensitivity. 🤭I don't care if it's one inch or eight. After all, I will mostly just use his tongue. And yes I admit, very rarely, but I do crave even regular sex. But if I had to go completely without it, it wouldn't much that much difference to me. Anyway, my point is, I love putting myself into situations where I have all the leverage on him 😈 I can deny him my pussy all I want because I know he's desperate to feel it and I can tease him very closely with it. And the only temptation I have is thinking how much it would blow his mind if I suddenly just push it in. I guess I'll just do it one day, I just hope he won't blow right in as well🤭
I had an idea for a position where I would be able to grind his dick against my pussy for a while. I usually just sit on him, because it's been difficult to make it how I imagined. The tantric chair is working exactly as I hoped it would. 🥰 It's big enough that we both fit and the curvature is naturally pushing us together. It was quite hot. 🥵I loved feeling his dick on my pussy, and letting him play with me. It was thrilling giving him easy access like that. Letting him play with me. I enjoy the contrasting experience of being quite easy to reach, letting him play with my clit and slide his dick on my smooth shaved pussy, while simultaneously keeping him denied anything more. 🤭
When I was slowly jerking his oiled dick while he was playing with my swollen clit, it felt unsurprisingly intimate. 🥵 But I was amazed at how much I enjoyed the slow teasing of it. It felt quite mutual. More often than not I am just setting a situation where I do all the things, mostly for whim to suffer through. ... Or pleasure through. If that's a thing. 😅 Sometimes the border is a bit blurry. Anyway, I wanted to let him feel close to me, to remind him what's he missing, and be very direct about it by giving him a bit of a wet dick, without feeling my inside. But in the end, I feel the teasing was going a bit both ways. I admit, that I enjoyed the tension. Didn't even tell him to make me cum later, I wanted to hold on to that feeling and stay horny for a while longer. Though I guess it feels different for me when it's a few days and I do it by choice. I wonder if I went for a while how it would affect my keyholding. Would I become more empathetic towards his frustration, or would I just be more horny to see him suffer? 😈 Maybe one day I'll give it a deliberate scientific attempt.
I've recently mentioned, that I needed to downsize my bed, in order to make room. Well, the day finally arrived and I got now piece I wanted for a long time. A tantra chair 😍 I love how it looks, how it feels and even more so what It will allow me to do on it 😏 For years it's been fun to use just what I had. And you can do a lot with just .. well ... bit of space, bed and few chairs. But every now and then I have an idea for a position and I just can't figure out how to bend our bodies to make it work 😄 Anyway, there is a lot of option how to bend somebody 🤭 So yeah, you can tell I am thrilled. Also, I am starting to feel a bit more at home again. Of course there is a lot more to do. And I have another project I would love to have in here. A piece of bdsm furniture. But this is nice 🥰
We already gave it a try today, but I don't think I'll be able to finish editing the video during the weekend. But I have a sexy gallery for you, as I wanted to document myself on the new addition 😘 And I think I don't post pictures quite enough anyway... enjoy them in a way Luke can't, so he's a bit jealous 🤭
You know what's hot? Getting my pussy eaten out while watching him fuck the air in front of him 🤭
Before I started playing with chastity I always thought about male horniness as something I need to act upon. Something that's demanding of my attention. Like "look how horny I am, what do you want to do with it". Sometimes it almost felt like an obligation. Well, I am very much enjoying how I can turn it upside down. Just amuse me, with how frustratingly horny you are. Show me how you strain in the cage and show me your rock hard erection, your stiff swollen dick when I let your out 😈... cute... I can let you thrust into nothing for a while, if you want to, but don't let it distract you from eating my pussy, all your future orgasms are depending on it.🤭
I have to admit though, sometimes I wonder about the intensity of it. I don't think I've ever been one-fifth as horny as Luke is regularly. I can go for a few days. I think maybe I didn't cum for a week or something like that, once or twice in my life. But after that, I really want to cum, so I just do. Now often with the help of his tongue 🤭 Anyway, it's not like I am envious of him, but after all the edging I gave him, sometimes I am curious where is the line after which waiting and edging isn't worth it. I know I am taking him there regularly. But I wonder how much teasing is necessary before crossing the payoff ratio 🤭
Well, luckily I am quite happy to live it through him. Making him desperately horny and being the one causing all those emotions and torment can be quite intense at times and get to enjoy my own conflicting emotions. Interestingly I find it quite erotic. I am well aware of what I am causing and sometimes I feel guilty about enjoying it. So, I just have to "power through it". What helps is knowing he's loving it. But that conflict can be quite arousing, as it gives me a taste of doing something forbidden. 🥵 Something my moral compass is steering me away, but I decide to ignore it, for the sheer pleasure I (we) get out of it. And there is something hot about silencing that alarm.
Watching him squirm under me, seeing how swollen his balls and dick are, yet he still does his best about giving me pleasure he can't have, makes cumming on his face an experience I love to live over and over again. 😈 I can only imagine how it feels for him. He sucks on my clit and feels how I am getting close. Right before orgasm, we are probably both equally excited. But I am the only one who gets over the finish line. All he gets is feeling my orgasm on his tongue as the waves of relief are going through my whole body. I don't know how he can manage it, but I am glad he does 🤭
While I made Luke wear the flat cage for multiple days in a row, I think doing so is mostly impractical. However, I still love to play with it. Especially when I am in the mood of making his dick disappear completely. His "big" cage is still at least a nub. Barely bigger than his balls, but it's something, it's a tiny dick, or at least a stump. But with the flat it's just balls, to remind him where his horniness came from and nothing else, no "release valve", nothing to play with. I am sure I am not the only one wishing magic was real, so I could make it disappear and reappear at my wish, but this is as close as I can get. 🤭
Anyway, I didn't have many girly sleepovers in my life, so I am not sure what's supposed to happen in there. But according to guys I've been talking to it didn't sounds bad 😈 Lot of lesbo sex, nudity, and perversion. Well, I don't have any lesbian friends, at least not I know of. But then I remember, I can make my pet's dick disappear for a while and that's good enough. If I put Luke into a cute maid costume and some lingerie, he can be my sexy girlfriend for the night 🤭
I admit, that could've been just the tiniest bit of excuse on my part why I needed him to be in the maid costume, but I found the idea of having a kinky sleepover with him just pure silly fun. Besides, I think he looks great in it, especially when he's smooth like this and his mouth is wrapped about the silicone cast of his dick 😈 (while the original is flattened in the cage)
He still can't get the dick down his throat, but I have to admit, he's getting better at it. He used to gag on the first few inches, but now he's getting a bit deeper. Maybe the maid costume made him channel his inner slut? 🤭 In either case, it's fucking hot to watch, especially since I could see him getting aroused by it as well. I wonder if it was the familiarity or the realisticness that triggered his failed erection attempt 😈
I just love messing with him. While the silicone dick was nicely erect, unlike him, they can both cum about the same 🤭 Which is zero. Better luck next time. Besides, he's well-behaved and wouldn't want to spoil a nice sleepover with something so messy, like having cummies, right? 😈
Oh, and if you noticed that my bed kinda shrunk, it's because I've decided to make space for some other fun stuff I want in my sex/bedroom. I am not saying anything, but I am looking forward to it soon😊
