Feeling confident & sexy as hell again! 🫦 Enjoy these pics I took last week but felt weird about posting til now.
I didn’t think I was ready to jump back into SW/selling access to a body that had just been stolen and taken for granted. It’s been over a month since someone’s poorly raised son helped himself to my body while I would sleep. Over & over again, regardless of my pleas to PLEASE STOP. Over 30 days since I’ve felt the touch of another human on my skin. 35 days of self re-discovery & loving MYSELF to be exact. It has taken ALL that time to be able to even get MYSELF off but alas.. this 🐱 splash water park 💦 is flowing once again.
& I LOVE what my body is doing right now! The weight is slowly coming back on, I am very much a morning person now and have gotten some of the BEST 💤’s in the WORLD at night. I find myself being SO much more productive with my time now that I run on my own terms and my own schedule.
My hobbies and passions have returned and brought along some new friends with it! I’m excited about all the NEW in my life! 🥹🥰
New job. New friends. New goals. New piercing. New hair. New trade skills. New mindset. Starting school soon. And hopefully soon I can get some new toys so WE can all play TOGETHER! 🫨🤗😈
LOTS of changes this month and they all tie together under this last super full moon of 2024. 🌕 You will be seeing LOTS change around here as well; I have an entirely new posting schedule, format, content ideas AND ways for us to connect. 👉🏻👌🏻
CURRENT GOAL FOR THIS PLATFORM: Raise enough money to get the Bluetooth Lovense toys so I can start LIVE-STREAMING!!! That’s right, you will each have an opportunity to see if you’ve got what it takes to open the flood gates and make it tsunami 🌊
May the odds ever be in your favor, I’m NOT easy to please. 😽
Til then, one last look at the old me. She’s gone but NEVER forgotten. ⚰️🥀
It’s been one hell of a month but I am starting to feel MUCH better about my safety/well-being & MYSELF!!! Best part of all, my 🐱 works again! 🥹 I can’t explain the pain of wondering if you will ever be able to even get yourself off again or not. After being SA’d.. it really feels like any kind of thought, act or relevance to ANYTHING that might have something to do with the topic of ‘sex’, romance or calls for you to show even the tiniest bit of vulnerability is just done & over with for you. Forever. 💔
NOOOOOPE! Just needed some time to process, heal & release…. PLENTY of stuff!!! 😅 - I swear though, EVERY time a man hurts me it’s like it’s JUST the push I needed to BO$$ TF UPPP! I just gotta bitch about it til I’m over even MYSELF. LOL!
Thanks for the support during these dark, weird ass times. I can’t express the amount of love I have for those who have reached out to offer condolences, offer a safe space for me to speak my truth and VERY special thank you to those who have donated! You have NO IDEA how much your random acts of kindness have kept me not only able to keep living day to day life, as I can’t work at the moment, but you have restored my faith that humanity and compassion are not completely extinct yet. There ARE strangers out there who care and recognize right from wrong.
One thing I know for sure is; I may be tiny, but I’m MIGHTY!
Everything that has been sent to k1Ll or destroy me has been unsuccessful and failed miserably. Not trying to sound like a big tough guy, I’m VERY much damaged in many ways, but you’ll never see me quit. And I’ve gotta give myself huge kudos for that because some days, I really just wanna give up. Some days my SOUL is exhausted and I just.. don’t have the will to keep fighting.. then something extravagant happens to remind me yes; I AM that bishhhh! 😏👑💅
Accepting tip donations or CA/V3NM03 @SunshinHazeXO to try to get my life back together after being SA’d by my last partner last week. It’s hard to get in the mood rn.. 😔
Also; It may be a bit before I am able to shoot content again. I am in the process of re-designing Da Muddaship v.4-5.0? Idk which version but I AM enjoying that at least. Designing a new space that is MINE to make comfortable, safe & a reflection of the new ME!
There’s still so much to be done but I’m in no rush. In due time, I will correct my wrong doings, repair damages to bridges my crazy pyro ass burnttt and balance will be restored in my life. Anything removed does not serve my highest power and I do not mean position or control but MY souls contract.
I thought a protection order would make me feel safer but now that he’s breaking it without a care shows “no I do NOT consent” and “NO, YOU LEGALLY CANNOT DO THIS TO ME” don’t mean anything to him. ‘No’ is not a word in his vocabulary unless he’s using it, as it seems.. I don’t think I will FULLY feel safe until he is behind bars. Which is making finding work difficult. I need to heal my mind first. ❤️🩹
I’m happy to be free & surrounded with genuine love and support again but I have a LONG journey of healing my inner-self and learning to fully love myself to do first. Things can only get better from here. That I know to be certain! 💯
BRAND NEW FULL NUDE SOLO SET! 😱 15+ Sessy Spooky Photos- It’s been SO LONG since I’ve felt comfortable in my own skin. Feels good to be back to my bad ass self. During the BEST time of the year! 🧡🖤🎃
This is not a want but a necessity!!!
Willing to trade content for it. 😘
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