didn't love my last post here being a bit sad so i have a mirror selfie that i was too nervous to post to twitter that's all for now unfortunately but i did my makeup today which was nice, it was my first time doing it in over a week, im gonna try do it tomorrow as well :)
2024-09-22 02:43:46 +0000 UTC View Posti made a vlog i haven't made one of these in AGES this is just an update on me i guess. i hope ur all doing well:) im doing okay. i liked making this vlog a lot actually. i'm addicted to wow a little bit again but i think it'll be fun if not a little stressful if i do mythic raiding for a couple months. it really engages my brain actually in a weirdly healthy way i think just it works well with how i learn things so it'll be a lot of fun to try get really good at it again.
2024-09-12 04:01:17 +0000 UTC View Post
one hundred thousand degrees
😎😎
this is the latest photo i worked on so i felt like id share the finished result + all the other takes. the pictures are ordered reverse chronologically but you can kind of see the evolution if you go through them backwards ☺️
i decided to smudge the camera lens in order to get the effect of almost being stuck in a steamy shower or something, it looks really cool i really love this photo actually 😎
just some random photos i took today nothing im really in love with but i got a lot of stretching practice doing all the poses lmao
i'm gonna try go to the gym tomorrow im actually really really anxious about it but im gonna give it my best shot. i hope it goes well 😖
I had meant to post these august 1st but i honestly forgot and then vanished from social media for a week so ur getting them now 😌
I think soon i want to start posting a photo every day on twitter in order to ease myself back into being photography, regardless of how good/how bad i look or how much time or effort i've put in i'll be posting something every day there. The hope is that even though most days will be kind of mediocre just making myself do it will open up opportunities for me to feel motivated to do something cool once in a while 😎 and also i have WAY too high expectations of myself and am too much of a perfectionist and this is causing a huge mental block in my posting because i feel like everything i post has to be perfect and it gives me anxiety about even trying because im scared im not good enough its a whole thing lmao
Light pollution over a falling star
WE ARE SO BACK ☺️☺️☺️😭😭😭😭
I was messing around a lot yesterday with city skyline photos. Initially i wanted to do a sunset photo but I ended up staying up till 6am just working on pictures and got one of my favourite photos ever, certainly the best photo i've taken in at least a year. You have no idea how good it feels to break through this year long mental block when it comes to photography. i'm so happy and proud of myself right now ☺️
First post in literally forever >.>
Hi everyone :) I hope you're doing well. I'm doing good!! Have been making a bit of a comeback on social media recently which has felt really good, I tried taking photos today (i got some cool ones i think but ill probably want to edit them a bit), and i felt like i'd take my first sort of lewd photos in honestly forever... i genuinely don't remember the last time i took photos of myself like this just for fun or whatever, ive been pretty distant from my body and sexuality in general i guess hence the lack of things to post here. But i've been taking steps to be more active in my own life!! So it seems like as good a time as ever to try stuff like this again too 😊
Hey guys, long time no see :) Its my 3 year HRT anniversary today so I thought i'd put in the effort and look nice and take photos :)
I didn't wanna go too overboard with high effort photos cus honestly i'm just so out of practice it's only reasonable i start slow and get my confidence back, but I feel really good about how I did today so that's good 😊
happy easter and happy trans day of visibility :)
some updates:
i'm back on meds again (finally) and have been taking them consistently for the last 4 days in a row which is a big deal for me. I don't know if i mentioned here before either but i started invisalign for my teeth and im just doing a lot of small steps that are healthy for me. A side effect of the medication is im not eating as well but im getting out of bed a lot easier and im going outside a little bit again for the dentist appointments.
i also got myself a new dress and did my makeup super well today and i feel really happy with myself for that 😊 the dress is gorgeous and i haven't gotten tooooo rusty with my makeup skills despite taking a bit of a long break from really working on them ☺️
Hi to anyone still left here :)
i know it's been a while. but i wanted to share these photos with you :)
honestly, the longer i took a break.. the harder it was to come back and post here. I couldn't bring myself to even log in and look at my account because i felt so guilty about not posting. i've been streaming a lot, but it's been tiring me and im not exactly doing things in the healthiest way. ive been struggling a lot but the weather is getting good again finally. the sun is out. the days are warm. i want to bloom again and feel happy again. i hope i can do that. thank you so much
was messing around with a photo set up today. i don't really have my finished photo or anything but i tried a bit today. i'm stopping for tonight but i plan to pursue this one for a while longer until i get something really perfect. i don't know if im putting a bit too much pressure on myself but i want this photo to be like... special i guess. i wanna go all out and for it to be my best work yet. i haven't done photography in ages it feels like so, there's no time pressure for me, there's no reason to rush it, and i'll hopefully come up with something im really proud of.
2024-01-15 04:19:38 +0000 UTC View Post
happy new year everyone :) it's my birthday today!! and i'm finally posting a nude here after god knows how long >.>
last year was really really hard for me, so here's to this year being better :) i'm doing a lot better than i was 2 months ago that's for sure. i think once the weather starts getting warmer and summer rolls around it'll be a good season for breaking out of stagnation and getting myself back on track. i'm already moving in the right direction so, im hopeful ❤️
just another text update today, im doing okay :) i got my nails done and im gonna try get another trip to the salon again soon to feel pretty. id like to post SOMETHING here this month for christmas, even if its not exactly amazing content, I'll have free time when i go visit my family over christmas to maybe get some cute dog videos for you and some cozy holiday stuff :)
2023-12-12 02:00:18 +0000 UTC View Posthi guys, sorry for no posts for basically the last month >.>. theres a lot i could say, i typed out a few different things but it mostly felt like i was just venting and being overly hard on myself, and i was making myself upset >.> (i do that a lot).
the last few weeks ive been streaming basically non stop every day, and its been good for me i think. im socializing at least and im getting dressed every day and leaving my bed so its helping me for sure. ive honestly impressed myself with my ability to stick to my goal of streaming every day and not missing a day, and so I want to start getting back into photos next month (january). I think if i set myself a daily goal just like i have with streaming, it'll be good for me and I'll be able to do it :) so that's exciting. Sorry about the wait, i really can't apologize enough. im trying not to be too hard on myself about it but yeah i feel pretty guilty about it all. im doing my best i promise, thank you everyone who stuck around through this it means the world to me.
hi hi :) i got a new lingerie top that looks very beautiful on me 🥰
i've been doing pretty okay the last few days, taking my meds a lot more consistently which has been proving to be a pretty big help with my mood and stuff (WHO would have guessed 😮💨). while i'm obviously not fully back yet it feels like the worst is over i guess. hopefully things start trending more positively soon :) thank you so much for waiting for me and caring about me. i don't deserve you all ❤️
bathtub pics :) + random pics i took of my makeup yesterday :)))
2023-11-08 17:12:33 +0000 UTC View Post
Happy halloween everyone 🧡🧡🧡 i've been doing okay the last few days, taking a lot more photos and stuff again, and halloween is such a good time to get back into more high effort photo set stuff so i gave it a try today in a super super hot outfit 😌 i hope you like it a lot :)
2023-10-31 19:24:01 +0000 UTC View Post
feel like it's been a minute since i just took some low effort night time nudes, so i took some low effort nudes tonight for u to let u know i care 🥰
2023-10-17 02:01:23 +0000 UTC View Posthi hi everyone :) no makeup selfie cam for you for now! i'm doing good today i've got a lot of chores done and i let myself cry for an hour or so (hence the red eyes 🤣) but i'm feeling a bit better after getting my emotions out 😎 i'm gonna do my makeup and try get some more photos for today and i'll post them later if i do! so i hope those turn out well so i can show off some cool stuff 🥰
2023-10-13 17:41:48 +0000 UTC View Post
bonus post for the day omg she posted TWICE in one day???? 😱 also pls check out the earlier post as well 😎😎
2023-10-09 21:35:09 +0000 UTC View Post
had another very good day of photo taking today :) i hope ur proud of me!! as i mentioned before but im kind of struggling a bit with depression at the moment but, one thing i think i'm good at is channeling those feelings into my creativity. i feel like my content has been lacking a bit of that unhinged depressive creativity for a while now and it's something that im always really proud of creating, like these headshots are just really lovely 🥰 and the last few photos have a cool creative use of the space and framing in the photo that i like a lot. also my makeup was so good today too i can't forget that 😎 i think you can expect more stuff like this from me for a while, but i'll also try motivate myself to take some hot photos of myself simply for the reason that looking hot helps me feel good about myself and i deserve to feel good about myself more often 😤
2023-10-09 20:24:07 +0000 UTC View Post
very very long creature i had a bizarre creative surge today which combined with my negative mental health to produce these monstrosities of photos. honestly, i love them. it's been a while since i've been creative like this, and they turned out so good i was worried i got rusty but i guess not 😎
2023-10-03 02:24:39 +0000 UTC View Postonlyfans removed my last post cus i had a sword in it i didnt realize until now LMAO sorry. im feeling a bit better though, for what it's worth :) i'll try get some actual content out soon, just taking my time i guess. i decided to remove the vlog of me being sad just because i didn't wanna bring the vibes down any more than i already have. sorry for being a mess recently, it's been hard i guess is all 😩. ill figure things out eventually i promise. thank you for being supportive of me and for all the nice messages and stuff. it means a lot
2023-10-02 17:11:57 +0000 UTC View Post
hi hi i had a big high effort day today with content!! I've started slowly trying to figure out tiktok so i spent quite a while making and editing one of those, took some hot selfies, i tried taking some headshots but not many were really that exciting tbh, and i did a lil video too as well :) i hope you like these photos i really like how the sun looked on my body tbh, there's a lot of room for creativity here that i'm excited to explore 😇
2023-09-19 23:44:09 +0000 UTC View Post
i got a lower back stretcher thing so i'm trying that out today :) hopefully more photos tomorrow 😇
2023-09-17 21:44:27 +0000 UTC View Post
messing around with photos and makeup again :) slowly working through the depressive feelings i've been having, i know it's not a lot but it's my best 😇
2023-09-16 21:59:58 +0000 UTC View Post
been super in my feelings this last week and just being really harsh on myself but i'm trying to pick myself back up today so wish me luck :) i plan to do makeup for the first time in a few days and take cute photos and do my social media stuff. it's hard, this feels like the hardest i've fallen in a long time honestly. i don't even know why exactly things weren't going badly for me at all i just sort of crashed out of nowhere 😅. but i think i'll be okay im always okay i always do pick myself back up eventually, so i'm hopeful. i love you all thank you for the patience and support :)
2023-09-08 18:55:22 +0000 UTC View Post
late night gaming 😎 sorry for the low effort post today I figured anything was better than nothing though :) just getting myself back into things now that i'm back home, I'd like to do a vlog where I talk about the trip and how it went soon but first I had to stream and unpack and clean my apartment so I just have been catching up on my to do list. initially I wanted to do a renew on bonus video for the first of the month but it just happened that the trip overlapped with the end of august so >.> next month i guess is the new plan for bring those back! i'm so sorry i'm always such a mess lmao but i'm doing my best i promise i just get overwhelmed with streaming/twitter/onlyfans/transitioning in general. i just hope you don't mind too much because i really am trying my hardest every day to do a good job 🥰
2023-09-03 04:30:05 +0000 UTC View Post
