I didn't really think about going back to therapy anytime so..
Added 2024-07-17 06:29:16 +0000 UTCI didn't really think about going back to therapy anytime soon, but earlier I was playing around with the idea again. I'm not sure when anxiety becomes "that" anxiety, but it would be nice to ask a professional, right? I get anxious at work. I get anxious with certain people. I often have to talk myself through it to relieve the nerves, and it's manageable, I think, but annoying once it resurfaces shortly after.
There was a TikTok I was reading earlier at the gym. It was about something along the lines of stopping yourself from digging for answers you're not really ready for. Those are one of the lines I tell myself to avoid getting worked up, but I feel like the unknown holds all the answers I feared approaching, when there's a chance those answers don't exist to begin with.
But there's really only one way to find out, so why not just pull the bandaid right? However, the clip goes on to say to wait it out until those answers approach you, or like, the time will come when those answers will come to light or not, and I didn't really think of that one actually. Still, if the answers are there, it would drive me a bit crazy knowing I waited it out when I could've found out the second I had the urge to. But then what happens? Will that change anything? Either it will calm my anxieties, validate the pessimistic theories my head brewed up, or it will create new ones instead.
At the end of the day, I figured that if I practiced writing all of this – this overthinking stuff that loves to swarm me around these hours – then they'll disperse. They're simply temporary feelings.
