katiejo

I had this idea of “head in the clouds” for awhile now. Didn..

Added 2023-04-24 21:23:40 +0000 UTC

I had this idea of “head in the clouds” for awhile now. Didn’t think it would end up being a self portrait, but I can relate to a lot of what it means to me. Being an artist is hard. Wanting financial freedom, freedom to express yourself. To be successful. (But honestly who doesn’t want those things? Am I really no different from everyone else?) I’m always dreaming and worrying about the future. Always reaching for the end goal. But I don’t even know what that is even for myself.
A lot of people have told me how inspiring I am to them and how much they admire my work ethic. What work ethic, I’m lazy AF. I bash myself when I find myself laying in bed procrastinating, thinking my art isn’t good enough, and/or comparing myself to other’s journeys.
Ik I’ve come a long way and I am very proud of myself, but I yearn for more (again who doesn’t?)
I’m not that good with putting my thoughts into words and it’s very hard to put myself out there sometimes. But I guess what “head in the clouds” is, is dreaming or wondering about your potential potential, whether you’re actively pursuing your passions or not.
I’ve struggled a lot with putting meaning to my art which is a big reason why I haven’t done it. In school I’ve been thought that everything needs a reason. But does it? Is this the reason why I haven’t arted in so long? Why can’t we create just because? I mean this piece has a reason. But just saying.
I hope all of this makes some sense. Ik it’s not typical OF content. But I had a lot of fun creating this and would love to share my other artisticness’ with you. So thanks for letting me