Update 🐎 working towards some normalcy ✨ I’ve been working t..

Update 🐎 working towards some normalcy ✨
I’ve been working tirelessly on answering emails, clearing my inbox, editing clips and photos, and of course facing the chaos that is my home (I haven’t properly cleaned since my first operation in February of last year… there’s a LOT to do). We (the roommates and I) are spring cleaning and painting in preparation of their upcoming wedding 💒 (how exciting is that?!)
If you’ve been following my social media accounts you know that I’ve been reading and writing up a storm (I read 20 books in January… don’t ask me what any of them are about, I remember nothing haha). In about 5 weeks I should be fully weaned off of painkillers for the first time in a YEAR! 🎉 oh, to be sober and pain free
Despite the leaps and bounds I’ve made in my recovery since November, I find myself feeling like I’m not doing “enough”. My goal now is to let go of those expectations by trying not to hold myself to the standards of others - or of who i “used to be”. Especially cause… I’m really not the same person anymore 🤷 what I went through was f*cking traumatizing and life altering. So this is me trying to have some grace for myself 🌺
I wanted to do something to celebrate my progress so I booked myself a couple of horseback riding lessons! It’s something I’ve always loved but hasn’t always been financially accessible, especially when I was wee.
Now I know what you might be thinking - can you do equestrian when you have no butthole? 😅
Well, it’s been the required amount of months so… let’s find out 😂
I start next week, and this goal is the cost of two lessons. I have nothing to give you in exchange for your support aside from my appreciation and the promise of some swanky new content as soon as physically possible. Those of you who’ve stuck with me through the last year are the real ones 🤘
Ok enough about me. I’m off to hard boil an egg (which I am now an expert at, FYI) cause I have been clacking away at my keyboard all afternoon and I’m ravenous.
Love and toots xx
Alex
Ps - I’m wearing an ostomy garment from vanilla blush in these photos! They’re super comfy and they have options for all gender expressions but I recommend sizing up if you’re like me and you put everything in the dryer 😇