Hey my fellow followers, I'm the nakedwill that y'all know f..

Hey my fellow followers, I'm the nakedwill that y'all know for a while. I still love being naked online and offline, sexually and nonsexually, alone and with a crowd, public and private...Sorry for disappearing for quite some time. I was depressed and goaless after graduation. At the latter part of my graduate study ( I was in my second graduate program), I started to panic because I have no end goal or a dream in the sky that I really want which would motivate me to strive to be the very best and gradually move myself up to that goal... During my study in Germany, I have been working in a big worldwide corporate and also a startup company as a researcher/developer in somewhat related fields to my graduate studies... Everything was very ideal as expected. No crazy overwork, no werid bosses, no hard-to-get-along coworkers... But somehow I was unhappy... I don't know why... just didn't feel quite right... I thought I love to do research but I did not. I love to learn the things I like but only in my own pace (I think everybody is like this) Everyday I went to work and just After graudation, my student visa automatically terminated and since I had no interest in working in the industy, I went back home. My parents were happy to pick me up in the airport with my little brother who was working as a researcher in chemical engineering position in a big corporation as well. (However, he decided to quit and started training himself to be a trader so now we all live together with our parents... we shared a room together.) I could see mixed emotions on their faces. Happy because I got back. Confused because why? Almost all my relatives (including those ones I barely know) asked "why do you com back??" I didn't say anything. Deep in my heart, I know what they really want to say. Why not keep working in that company or pursue a phD. They all kinda take pride in working as a researcher in big corporation like Google/Amazon... or startup company that influences future (the one I worked in is about green energy) or doing academic work. I know I didn't live up to their expecations. I am a disappointment. I talked to my parents and my friends about the decision to come home. They all said that I was being naive. No one really likes one's job, but everyone sucks it up and lives their lives... They all said that I'm gonna regret what I did. I was torn. Maybe I just made a dumb decision. Ever since last June when I got back to live with my parents (I have savings that I could move out, but My parents suggested I stay at home for cutting out unneccessary cost of living alone....I was greateful and felt loved. Thank you Daddy and Mommy) I started trying new things and meeting new people. After a long journey almost a year, I discovered my love in teaching adults. I love the feedback I get from people, setting up goals and working with them. I love the feeling of distributing things I know, inspiring others and making them happy... However, to be a teacher/educator of any kind, one needs to establish a personality of professionalism and getting naked online seems to undermine this. I have been thinking about this a lot but still I love being naked, which does not impose any problems. However, as a sex-positive nudist activist, I should set up a role model and shouldn't back out?! I'm not sure what to do about this... Some questions: 1. Did I make a bad decision for not keeping "a better life"? 2. How do you choose your career and do you regret it?? 3. Is there anyway of balancing naked personality online and professionalism ?? maybe I should ask Is this possible in your opinion?? 4. Is posting sexual materials as a nudist devalue nudism and shouldn't be viewed as nudists?? 5. If you were me, will you make those decision I did??